aimless ramblings....

Everyone of us reaches out... into nothing... hopefull that we'll find something we could hold close and maybe love... a thing to validate our existance... its truely the way we were designed... trying to connect... to make that connetion that seems so insignificant yet is so integral... connected to that ethereal plane too we hold true to our beliefs... that eventually we will be found... by who or what? I know not... so lets just say something... but from the nothingness that we were created from stems the carnal desire to be understood... so which is it... being found or understood? But what good is understanding anyways... the complexities are far to multifaceted to hold any meaning in the end so it would take an eternity to understand something so trivial as a grain of sand let alone a human being...
then i guess being "found" matters more than being understood... u find love... u find hope... u find friendship... you find companionship... and reasoning goes out the window... no need to understand something so primal... giving in and making the connection... reaching out again... this time praying to dear God that something grab ahold of us before we fall into the void once again... but what really helps the process... what? Do we just accept the hand that is offered to us and hold on tight? Or do we wait.. think about it and maybe try and understand it...??
by the time all the questions are answered and the dust settled... wouldnt it be too late...? there it goes that one hand that could have found you! and you wasted your time trying to grasp connotations of no particular importance... feelings of being found lost forever... another kink in the chain... weakened again... all those connections made in vain... so it is once again down to the way we were created that we are a questioning lot... all of us breaking tiny things in to "whys" "hows" and "whens" regarless of consequence... seems alright at first but are you willing to have those questions answered at the risk of loosing those valuable connections... those connections that help define the proverbial meaning of "being found" or would u rather be lost...